Perfection.

Perfection is something I long for and so often strive for in my day to day life, especially in regards to educating my kiddos.  I pray, plan, prepare, scour Pinterest for ideas that will engage my pupils; yet somewhere between the prayer and the execution of said plans, I feel like the perfect time isn't here yet.  My kitchen sink has dishes in it and the desk is filled with papers.  Somehow, the momentum and excitement from planning have hit the brick wall of perfection.

I become filled with doubt and disappointment when faced with the reality of school with a teething 15-month old underfoot compared to the Pinterest worthy kick-off to the year I was envisioning.  Here my heart is discouraged and my selfish hopes feel like throwing in the towel.  But by His grace, He meets me where I am (tears  and all) and reminds me that He knows I can't do perfection but He will give me what I need for the calling He has for me.

He reminds my oh so tender heart that perfection is His and His alone.  He has begun a good work in me, but He isn't finished yet.  In the meantime, He will quiet my heart and remind me that what I am called to do is to work as unto Him.  He will take care of the rest.

So, this year there wasn't a First Day of Homeschool picture for our little academy.  But there was a moment to begin a new year and the year was quietly started.  It came disguised as a toddler's nap and caught me a little off guard.  However, since the year has started I know God knew my heart was needing that chance to give Him my perfection and trade it for trust in His daily plan.